The Struggle

I saw this meme on Facebook recently, and it reminded me of growing up. I have frequently had hot dogs or hamburgers with no buns, so we used bread. It didn't bother me, but it got me thinking about other struggles that people don't realize.

You don't know the struggle until:

• you cant sleep at night because your limbs start to fall asleep or hurt because your own body is crushing them
• you can only fit into leggings/stretch pants because even your fat work pants wont fit anymore
• you can't buy wide calf boots because even those won't fit around your legs
• you don't go shopping with you sisters because you can't shop at the same stores
• your XXL underwear fall off your ass all day because your front-butt gets in the way
• you sit at an angle in the car because your stomach gets in the way of the steering wheel otherwise
• you take the elevator vs. stairs at work because you don't want to be sweating and out of breath for the meeting
• you can't go to the gym because somehow your XXL gym clothes no longer fit
• you can't put your socks and shoes on
• you can't cut  (don't even think about paint) your own toe nails. 

the list goes on...

I found this tattoo a while ago, and I decided it would be a great post-weight loss tattoo. "without struggle there is no progress" It speaks to me on many levels. I have fought hard throughout my life to be successful, so that I didn't have to choose between sandwich bread and hot dog buns in the grocery story (although I should just really avoid carbs... and hot dogs to be honest). The struggle of being overweight is what drives me to want a change. Need a change. A lot of people in my life think this decision to get weight-loss surgery is one of vanity. Sure, I want to look good, but more than that I want to FEEL good. I want to be comfortable in my own body and know that I am doing what is best for ME. 

xoxo, 

Jess